Better Fuck Up Now, So You Won't Fuck Up Later

Apologies if you don't like the F-word but it is what it is.

Been a minute, my homeboy and girlies. How have you been? What have you been up to and how has life been lately? How was April for you? If you ask me, it was an interesting yet rough one. Can we ever be out of this ghetto called adulthood? The only thing I can tell you is that whenever you're having a bad day, just remember that it's just a bad day and not a bad life. And just take small out of your account and get yourself some amala and gbegs with some beef and fat ponms. Because if you don't take care of yourself, who will?

Anyway, back to my topic for today… If you're new here, kindly grab a seat, I've got a story to tell.

Sometime early last year, I started working with Lammy A for The DIY Collective Workshop 2.0 slated for the year. It was a big opportunity for me as I had the chance to work with someone who's a music exec and has done big stuff in the industry, and also pretty connected. In fact, it was my path to my current place at The 49th Street. But that's not where I'm going. Come with me. You see, working with Lammy is seamless and insightful because I have enough liberty to be as creative as I want. Then one night she hit me up for an urgent gig that she was working on already, but she needed assistance to finish it up because of her tight schedule. As someone good at what he does, it shouldn't be hard to take up the job and get it done. Plus I needed money die(it wasn't even a free gig). But guess what I did?

I freaked out!

Yess. I did. I read her message and immediately developed imposter syndrome. I was so excited to have been reached out, yet I was so scared that I wouldn't be able to deliver. Why? It was my first time and I wasn't sure of myself. So I didn't reply and waited till the next morning before giving a word. But it was too late. My fear of failing cost me the gig. As someone who's quite busy, yet she reached out but I was afraid to take it. Yeah, yeah, I know right. I should have taken the job like that and asked for help or figured a way out. I still work with her creating amazing stuff but this incident I wouldn't forget.

You're probably insulting me but that's how you also haven't embarked on your goals for the year. You are still stalling on that decision, that career change, or whatever because you're afraid to fail. But I heard a sentence from one of my guys some time ago, and it stuck in my head. So I'm putting it to you too.

“Fuck up now so you won't fuck up later.”

Is it something you have not done before? Do it! Are you going to make mistakes? Ansofokwat?(in Hauwa's voice) 

Better to fuck up now and learn from your mistakes, than to fuck up later when it's on a major scale. Yes, because you fail doesn't make you a failure. But you and I know how failure is. It can be overwhelming. That's why it's better to fuck up now. So you can quickly learn. Besides, nobody learned it all from the start, so give room for “fucking up” so you can grow.

I probably may not have a good example but I hope you pick a lesson from my story. Whenever I embark on something different, I try to remind myself of that sentence. So I don't drown myself in imposter syndrome or whatever. I wouldn't die if I make mistakes but I know I will learn and do better.

And that's it, homies! If you could live this day as your last day on Earth, wouldn't you do what needs to be done? I'll leave you to answer that.

I'll stop here so you can read and digest this. I have more stories to tell soon.

Enjoy this song by Cat Burns

Love and Magic,

Damdam.

PS: Happy new month and happy birthday to all May borns.