2023 has taught me a lot!

It's 2023 and I have learnt enough lessons already…

2023 has taught me a lot!

It's 2023 and I have learnt enough lessons already…

Guys, I'm here to rant.

But first off, wagwannnn, my people?!

(In case you don't know, Wagwan means what's going on or what's up. It's originally a Jamaican slang. So, when I ask wagwan, feel free to respond.)

But honestly, how are y'all holding up in this rabbit hole they call Nigeria? How are you coping with everything, really? 'cause I don't even know. I just want whoever is driving this Naija bus to drop me before he drives me crazy.

Chinua Achebe didn't know crazy tings would happen like this when he wrote Things Fall Apart.

Whatever happens, please try to stay sane as much as you can because we're in this together. You remember what I said about figuring things out? We will, even though there are lessons to learn.

Speaking of lessons, it's the beginning of the year and I have learnt lessons. Omoor, 2023 don teach me, no be small thing. And I'll just tell you briefly about 'em.

If there's anything at all you shouldn't do this year, don't procrastinate! I think they say procrastination kills time. Bruv, this one nearly killed me.😂😭

And it's not funny.😭😭

Procrastination nearly killed me. He drained and stressed me physically, mentally and financially. Thank God for God. And the Nigerian spirit fighting to survive no matter the situation.

So basically, I had this thing I was supposed to do for months. I had all the time in the world to do it. I had months after months to catch up but I kept procrastinating, ignoring it like it's not something I'll later do. And when the day of reckoning came, I almost broke into two. I wanted to finish up months of work within days. And I ended up working myself up. From moving in between the hustle and bustle of Lagos to traveling at a high rate of transport to Ogun state, I ended up spending more than I could imagine. My mom said I learnt the hard way.😫 And I actually did. I knew I would pull through no matter what but at the cost of my mental health?

Damn, I went through a lot. Just because of Egbon Adugbo-procrastination. You see, I'm someone that can work under pressure. Although, I don't like it but that's my toxic trait (if that makes sense). If I still had all the time in the world, I would wallow in comfortability.

Sometimes, it's because of fear that I can't perform a task or I have to have it perfect in my head already. Then, I don't start until the pressure of deadlines choke me up, then I start to rush. Ayra Starr can't even try.

The pressure actually pushes me to act smart, all my senses are active and sometimes, I perform well. But, it's not healthy. It's not good. You don't become a pro like that. You don't utilize productivity effectively when you're under pressure. It affects your mental health because you're trying to do too much at a very short time.

And that's what I thought I could pull off.

The fear of not starting on time; waiting for perfection, instead of enjoying the process might as well even cost me a potential opportunity. The outcome, I don't know yet. I'm hoping that my Jesus wouldn't get tired of performing his thingy because I have learnt my lessons.🥺

Now I know you may not relate but if you do, let me know if you've lost an opportunity due to your negligence.

Have I learnt my lessons? Hell yeah! Will I do it again? I'll try not to. It would be stupid of me if I keep doing the same thing over and over again…

I know fear can set in anytime. You may think you're not good enough to start that thingy, but I want you to know that there's no perfect time to do something. Just start. Don't procrastinate. Don't let fear overwhelm you. 'cause years would pass and you'd regret why you didn't start early, if at all you even started.

I'm done ranting.

Don't forget to rant to me too, I'm sure you can relate to my story. See you in my next letter.

Love and Magic,

Damdam.